Tom Lillo
Blue Eyed Mystic

Just a blue eyed mystic with my mystery
Living as if I was really free
Kicking at the goads that were prodding me on
Till I'd bloodied myself and my strength was gone
A hard eyed loner doing things my way
I would not take something if I could not pay
Safely searching behind my walls
Until I heard a rumble and I watched them fall

And I found love
I found love
I turned around and bearing down right on me
I found love
Love found me

Roaring like a train out of the night
I was caught in the beam of a blinding light
Like a wide eyed kid, nearly scared to death
I didn't run, 'cause I lost my breath

But I found love ...

All I could do was let it roll right over me
All I could do was just trust and let it be
Well, I could not fight it, I had no chance
It was not a dream and it was not romance

I found love ...

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
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Mama, mama, where's your son?
Mama, mama, where's your son?
Where's he gone and what's he done?
Mama, mama, where's your son?

Papa, papa, where's that boy?
Papa, papa, where's that boy?
Why are you shouting, making all that noise?
Papa, papa, where's that boy?

He's saying, "I don't want to live, I don't want to live alone.
I don't want to live, I don't want to live alone.
I found my heart, gotta find my home.
Hey, I don't want to live, I donÕt want to live alone."

Lover, lover, where's your man?
Lover, lover, where's your man?
Didn't he tell you all his plans?
Lover, lover, where's your man?

He's saying, "I don't want to live ..."

It's like he woke up from a dream
After sleeping way too long
And found that he was burning with desire
Then he took a look around
And he blew on out of town
Like a bullet that was thrown into the fire

He's saying, "I don't want to live ..."

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
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I ve been up to the mountain, been down on the floor
Following those tracks, but, I wanted something more
Opened up my heart, just to empty out the pain
And it came rolling down just like a midnight train

Out of my confusion, cutting through the fog
I heard the whistle moaning, I was howling like a dog
Tried to flag it down, but, I was waving all in vain
Cause it just kept on rolling like a midnight train

I wrestled with the devil, he had the upper hand
Got hold of my past and I couldn't hardly stand
I tried to get away, I tried to hide my shame
But, it came rolling down lust like a midnight train
Well, it was roaring like the thunder, rushing like the wind
Drove me to my knees praying, "show me where I've sinned"
Well, I did not hear an answer, but, I wore the mark of Cain
And it just kept on rolling like a midnight train
Yeah, it kept rolling down just like a midnight train

Rolling, rolling down the line
Rolling, taking everything I ever thought was mine

I looked upon a woman and something in me broke
Lost the will to hide, finally I spoke
All this love came pouring out, falling like the rain
It came rolling down lust like a midnight train
Well, I've been up to the mountain, felt it start to shake
Got caught up in the landslide and it carried me away
I hung on for the ride, because it would not be restrained
And it just kept on rolling like a midnight train
Yeah, it came rolling down just like a midnight train

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
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I stumble through the day distracted and confused
Friends all want to know what's going on
I can't really say, 'cause nothing seems to be bruised
But, the way I ache there must be something wrong

Well, I think it's love
Well, I think it's love

When you look my way I just want to shout
Something in me makes a joyful sound
When you take my hand it turns me inside out
Something makes my heart begin to pound

Well, I ...

Love can spin your world around
And I need some help from you
To get my feet back on the ground
I think you know what to do

Well, I ...

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
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Half moon falling from the midnight sky
Half heard voices out behind my fence
There's a spectre drifting from days long gone
Down the alley toward my innocence

I follow blindly through the darkness
Feel the pounding of my heart
Round the corner into nowhere
Just my memories for a place to start

Through the wreckage, through the ruins
Past the shadows on the wall
Nothing's changing, but, everything's moving
Through the doorway and down the hall

House is empty, but the heart is haunted
Pipes are leaking, shooting steam
I've seen that face there, in the mirror
I've heard that voice whisper, in my dreams

"What are you doing wearing dead man's clothes?
What are you doing dragging around his ghost?
I thought it was over long ago
So, what are you doing wearing dead man's clothes?"

Frozen faces in a photograph
All the stories no one ever told
When it got too hard he left that world
Turned his back and walked out in the cold

In the darkness, when I found him
In the corner where the pieces lay
Worn out shoes, ragged coat around him
He saw right through me and he seemed to say

"What are you doing ..."

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
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There's laughter down the hall, sometimes they're kind of loud
I'm by myself again, but, it's different somehow
I don't even know why I should feel so bad
How can I have lost someone it seems I never had?
But, that feeling just won't go away and it's hard to keep it covered
When the TV is your family, when the radio's your lover

So, this is what it feels like to be alone
This is what it feels like to be alone

Drifting through the door is a song I know you love
It used to seem so gentle, now, it's feeling kind of rough
It's pulling at my heart, clutching at my throat
It hits a little harder with every passing note
I know it's not your fault, but, you touched a place in me
Older than the mountains, now, it's churning like the sea

So, this is ...

Held on to my anger, but, that doesn't work no more
So I just retrace my steps across the kitchen floor
Tried to strike a bargain with my heart, but, it won't budge
It's holding out for you and me, I think it wants too much

In the still of the night, I try to say a prayer
There's nowhere left to hide now, my heart is laid bare
I feel this pit in the depths of my soul
As the clock strikes two the tears start to roll
Betrayed by the desire that exposed my emptiness
Forced to sit and feel those things that words just can't express

So, this is ...

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
All rights reserved.. Used by permission

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I read the headlines, but, I like the photographs
And I'd trade a picture for a thousand words
I've said too much now, wish I could take it back
But, there's no denying what you heard

Good intentions, but, I still let you down
The same excuses that you know so well
The days are flying, I thought I'd change the world
But, I can't even seem to change myself

Maybe I'm not the man I thought I was
Maybe I've done all that I could
Maybe I'm not the man I thought I was
The man I thought I was is gone for good

I watch the TV, but, my life's a video
I show the image, and hide the heart
And my dream world is all so beautiful
Until the pieces, till they fall apart

Maybe I'm not ...

And I swear I've seen that face before
A faded image from my childhood
I never thought I needed grace before
But, the mirror's mocking me, it's forcing me to see

Maybe I'm not ...

Words and Music by Tom Lillo and David Dunbar
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
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When you look at me, I can feel the thunder
A storm is coming on
You get too close and it makes me wonder
How I thought I was so strong

There's an open heaven, but, the sky is falling
And I've got no place to hide
I can close my eyes, but, I still hear you calling
Like it's coming from all sides

And my walls, they shake like Jericho
I can hear them groan and sigh
And my heart's as safe as Jericho
When you're walking ...
When you're walking by

My foundations start to crumble
They're more like sand than stone
With every step I seem to stumble
Trying to make it home

And my walls ...

I'm just a man, so often misdirected
I've been looking for a light that's more than just reflected
I've been looking for a love that's more than self protection
I didn't realize I'd have to die to get my resurrection

Now, all my treasure comes to nothing
When I thought I was so wise
And all my words are just empty bluffing
Just a little boy's disguise

And my walls ...

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
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Running for freedom, running from hell
I got caught in the arms of a cheap hotel
Swinging wildly when push comes to shove
But, covering up when it comes to love

You start to fade if you settle here
And I can feel the weight of the wasted years
This ainÕt the place where your dreams come true
ItÕs where you lay them down before you push on through

Everyone gets a little lonely
Everyone feels the night coming down
Everyone gets a little crazy
Living in a border town

I make my way through the crowded room
Where the empty faces and shadows loom
IÕve got to cross that bridge; take a real deep breath
When the birth of freedom feels like death

Everyone ...

Music drifts across the river
A tale of deliverance
The night wind sweetly singing
"Take a chance, come on and dance"

Everyone ...

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
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So you've got to be good,and you've got to be right
That's such a heavy load
Where did you learn that you had to try
To drag it down the road?

Lay that burden down, boy
Lay that burden down
It ain't yours to carry
Got to lay that burden down

There's so much guilt, so much shame
It's like the weight of the world
How'd you come to wear all that blame?
You know, that ain't no string of pearls

Lay that burden ...

The things you've done, what's been said
That stuff ain't ever gonna change
You could spend your life trying to pay some debt
That you don't owe, just let it go
And we'll break those chains, in Jesus' name

Lay that burden ...

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
All rights reserved.. Used by permission

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Across the waves, I see your form
Calling me to face the storm
To leave my island, my retreat
To take a chance on being free
And walk on water

Winds will blow, and waters rise
IÕve lived so long with threatening skies
I fought the tide and here I stand
Only love could get me off this sand
To walk on water

I dreamed that something more
Was on some distant shore
But, now, I see it's you that IÕve been looking for

Take my hand and hold me up
So I donÕt drown when it gets rough
Cause, on my own, there is no way
But, by your side, and with a little faith
We'll walk on water

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
All rights reserved.. Used by permission

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In the new Jerusalem, in that city bright
There'll be no fear or darkness, for God will be our light
No one there will suffer, no one there will die
There'll be no sound of weeping for He will hear our cry

And God will wipe the tears from our eyes
God will wipe the tears from our eyes

When we're in His presence, then we'll understand
The reasons for our trials in this sinful land
We will not remember the pain of things gone by
And all will be rejoicing for death shall be denied

And God will ...

He will be among us
His words faithful and true
High up on His holy throne
Making all things new

In the new Jerusalem, in that city fair
We'll behold God's glory, when we're finally there
We'll be lost in wonder, we'll be lost in praise
We will want no other when we've seen His face

And God will ...

Words and Music by Tom Lillo
©2003 Zuma Ridge Music ASCAP
All rights reserved.. Used by permission

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